If it ever comes to the point where you are unwilling to do a thing that is expected of “leaders” or managers — remember this: It’s ok. You are not alone.
The first 39 floors of the building you are in right now are occupied by thousands of freshly RTO-d people who made the same decision somewhere along the line.
They’re good people, mostly. Salt of the earth. Respect!
As for you, maybe you don’t have to be in charge. Do you even remember how that came to be what you wanted?
Maybe you only want to want to be in charge. Maybe you just aren’t as ambitious as you think you’re supposed to be.
There’s nothing wrong with that. There’s nothing wrong with you.
I kind of like that about that about you, actually.
We all do.